Angel , Sammie Nicely, Mixed Media, 2001
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Season's Greetings
Time has no divisions to mark its passage, there is never a
thunderstorm or blaze of trumpets to announce the beginning of a new
month or year. Even when a new century begins it is only we mortals who
ring bells and fire off pistols.
Thomas Mann, 1875-1955, German Writer, Critic
Nevertheless, as humans have from time unrecorded and
immemorial, I choose to mark the completion of another solar cycle by
sharing some thoughts with those close to me. This will allow you to
catch up with what's been happening with me and to see where I am on
life's journey. Time indeed passes quickly, especially when you're
having fun. It's now over a year since I left Jamaica and came to live
in Atlanta. It was a leap in the dark but I had to follow my bliss and
go where the spirit led me. I have not regretted it one bit, though
saddened by the growing hopelessness and deterioration I left behind in
Jamaica.
When you discover you are riding a dead
horse, the best strategy is to dismount.
Dakota Saying
When asked if I miss Jamaica, I reply in the negative since wherever I
am is Jamaica; I am a piece of Jamaica. I do miss my friends there
though, the near- perfect climate and the full-bodied taste of fruits,
but one makes new connections, relationships and adaptations.
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A verse of some of my impressions:
FOR A CHANGE
i never sported head wear
didn't think it fit
but the cold has pressed
me into hats and caps.
instead of mongooses
squirrels startle my diurnal paths
traversing lawn, concrete and asphalt
in similar self-absorbed urgency.
azalea blazes
fool me into bougainvillea
unfurled magnolias like roosting egrets
in Bog Walk trees.
everywhere within foot's reach
unsequestered by vehicular container
apprehensive no more
of being called names
of having fire hurled as i pass
of enduring stoically
the onomatopoeia of gunfire
the simple pleasure
of going about my business.
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You can never leave home. You take it with you wherever you go.
Maya Angelou, 1928- , African-American Writer, Poet, Dramatist
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To add to the already multifarious life roles that I’ve played,
I have reinvented myself yet again, as a refugee and as a
writer-in-exile. Due to the barbarous attitudes and homophobic violence
that prevails in Jamaica, I have applied for political asylum in the US
as a member of a particular social group subject to persecution. My
affidavit cited 17 persons I knew killed in Jamaica because of their
sexuality. To that number can be added Michael Leroi who was brutally
taken from us last month. I'm waiting to be called by the INS for an
interview when they will assess my case. If I'm unsuccessful, I have
recourse to three levels of appeal all the way to the US Supreme Court.
If all fails, there are a dozen other countries to which I can apply.
As a 21st century human being and citizen of the world, I do not
consider geopolitical borders and social distinctions as deterrents to
or determinants of a fulfilling and useful life.
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A warrior has no honour, no dignity, no family, no name,
no country; he has only life to be lived.
Carlos Castaneda, American Anthropologist, Writer
There is only one courage and that is the courage to go on
dying to the past, not to collect it, not to accumulate it, not to cling to it.
We all cling to the past, and because we cling to the past we become
unavailable to the present.
Bhagwan Shree Rajneesh, 1931- , Indian Guru, Teacher
Life is full and overflowing with the new. But it is necessary
to empty out the old to make room for the new to enter.
Eileen Caddy, British Mystic, Co-Founder Findhorn Community
Having pared everything down to essentials, I am prepared to go
wherever and whenever, as opportunity permits, even on that ultimate
journey.
It's only when we truly know and understand that we have a limited
time on earth - and that we have no way of knowing when our time is up,
we will then begin to live each day to the fullest, as if it was the
only one we had.
Elisabeth Kubler-Ross. 1926-, Swiss-American Psychiatrist, Thanatologist
Somebody should tell us, right at the start of our lives, that we
are dying. Then we might live life to the limit, every minute of every
day. Do it! I say. Whatever you want to do, do it now! There are only
so many tomorrows.
Michael Landon, American Actor
This theme has been a focus for me the past year or so, only to
be brought forcibly to the fore by the events of September 11. To
real-ize is to make real for yourself what is important, those things
that have meaning for you. Life has no meaning beyond what you give it.
Our gift of consciousness is what we use to determine meaning in our
lives. It is up to us how we use it. Reaching out to touch and be
touched by you is one of those enduring values for me, hence the
minimal but now annual ritual of this encyclical.
Be the change you want to see in the world.
Mohandas Karamchand Gandhi, 1869-1948, Indian Political Leader
Out of the many things for which I am gifted, I have chosen to
write, to reach minds and enable others to arrive at their own meaning,
their own power, their own fulfillment. I began working on an epic
novel which would address the history of homosexuality in Jamaica and
the roots of violence and homophobia. Recognizing that it needed more
research from material not presently accessible to me, since I want to
combine memory and imagination with historical record, I put it aside
to develop the anthology of quotations that I have been collecting over
the years. It is not intended to be definitive, in the sense of
Bartlett's Familiar Quotations , as it is organized by themes
which have a bearing on spiritual healing, drawing its content from
divers sources, particularly those non-Euro/American, that traditionally
have been overlooked. Selecting and categorizing these has been a most
rewarding education in itself, exposing me to the minds and thoughts of
hundreds of thinkers of the last four millennia. There is a tremendous
heritage of healing wisdom available to us and it has become my
self-appointed task, my opus vitae , to bring it all together
in one book. Paul Williams used to say that life prepares you for itself:
my experiences with Spectrum, Science of Mind and the Temple of Light,
Prints of Whales, and all that have gone before have prepared me for this.
There are two ways of spreading light: to be the candle or
the mirror that reflects it.
Edith Wharton, 1862-1937, American Writer
Computer technology and information systems are making this possible.
Have laptop, will travel. As part of my reinvented persona, speaking
tours will feature increasingly. Many of y'all know I can get up in
front of any audience and chat bout anything from life to culture,
empowerment, health and healing, the environment. Already this year, I
spoke on Jamaican and Caribbean Art and Ethos at Emory University, and
I may share my experience with hate crimes, violence, and race
relations between people of colour at an Asian/Pacific American
Conference at Oberlin College in March. If you can identify a slot I
can fill in your corner of the globe, I would be happy to consider it.
What better way to revisit and renew friendships, make new ones and see
the world?
No love, no friendship can cross the path of our destiny
without leaving some mark on it forever.
Francois Mauriac, 1885-1970, French Writer
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Good Times, Good Friends: Sample, Me, Henry, Bobby
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I've seen a few of you this year. Early in the year, I shared
some stimulating and enjoyable moments with writer and JFLAG activist,
Thomas Glave, in Atlanta for signings of his book Whose Song?
I discovered that Gillian Royes, my former partner in Xaymaca Craft,
had re-migrated to Atlanta, following me two weeks after I arrived here
unbeknownst to either of us. Her sisters Sonia and Heather joined her
subsequently, increasing the size of my Jamaican family here. Michael
'Sample' Davidson continues to be my rock and salvation.
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My sister Lily was here for a couple days in September and I saw two of
her progeny, Colin and Suzanne, as well. Franz, who sat my house at Gallery
Way for a while, enduring the taunts of the neighborhood thugs, visited Atlanta briefly.
There's been one
addition this year to my family of origin: my sister Gwen's son, Ric
and his wife Colleen, had their third child and first daughter, Cindy
Theresa, early this month. That now makes me a granduncle nine times
over.
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'Tis in ourselves that we are thus or thus.
Our bodies are our gardens to the which our wills are gardeners.
William Shakespeare, 1564-1616, English Poet, Dramatist, Actor
Othello, I.iii
Despite advancing age which is inexorable, I am healthy and
fitter than I've ever been as Sample and I have been going to the gym.
Four months of almost daily workouts have made a marked difference as
my legs are more powerful, my upper body defined and I boast an
incipient six-pack. I felt it was time I stopped looking like a
prepubescent boy and begin to look half my age. I'm still doing my yoga
asanas every morning as I have for the past 25 years, and I still avoid
meat. I had Lasik surgery on my eyes in January so I am no longer
myopic and astigmatic, but need glasses to read fine print (I told you
about that age business). Goodbye contact lenses and the sensation of
gravel in my eyes. I recommend Lasik to any of you who may have visual
impairment. I also strongly urge you to modify your diet by reducing
your intake of fat and sugar, and increasing whole grains, fresh fruits
and vegetables. As John Scott would say, "A moment on the lips, an
eternity on the hips." In arriving at meaning and priorities, is not
the quality of life worth a little discipline and self-control? There
is now no doubt that some cancers, diabetes, atherosclerosis,
hypertension, heart disease and other chronic conditions are completely
avoidable.
Thou shouldst eat to live, not live to eat.
Marcus Tullius Cicero, 106-43 BCE, Roman Orator, Statesman, Essayist
Wherever we are, it is our friends that make our world.
Unknown
In July, I spent a week at the Green Gulch Zen Center in
California. It was an interesting experience, to say the least, having
to arise each morning at 4:30 a.m. for extended periods of zazen
(sitting meditation) and work practice. It has cured me of any desire
for the monastic life for now. A synchronistic highlight was meeting
Diane Gerard, a temple priest and Guest Program Director there with
whom I had gone to school at the Servite Convent forty-some years ago.
She was very kind and solicitous of my welfare and eager to connect
again with someone from her past. My thanks and appreciation go also to
Freddie Barrios of Lafayette and Gerald Mullings of Fremont who hosted
me before and after my retreat.
It is easy to say how we love new friends, and what we think
of them, but words can never trace out all the fibers that knit us to
the old.
George Eliot, 1819-1880, English Novelist, Poet
None of all this would have been possible without the love and
support of my best friend, John Scott, who continues to cover my
Kingston behind, er ... base, acting as Property & Financial
Manager. He allows me to be the peripatetic part of him that goes off
and does crazy things. At the wonderful surprise invitation of Judy
Codner (nee Limonius) with whom I grew up in Brown's Town, I'm off to
New York for the Holidays. I call it my Great Northeastern Tour as I'm
hoping to see many of you living in New York, New Jersey and
Pennsylvania. I don't know how long I'll be gone, but that's no excuse
for you not to keep in touch. I'm only an e-mail away.
No distance of place or lapse of time can lessen the
friendship of those who are thoroughly persuaded of each other's worth.
Robert Southey, 1774-1843, English Poet, Essayist, Historian
May you find the meaning in your life that makes it all
worthwhile, allowing you to focus on what is real for you, and the
courage to live your utmost possibility.
Have a Wonder-filled Christmas, Hanukkah, Diwali and Kwanzaa
And a Peace-filled and Prosperous New Year
Year-end 2001
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