Larry Chang: Writings: 2022 Solstice
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The 25th Northern Winter Solstice Epistle
December 2022

Do not let yourself be disturbed by what is to come;
rather, be in that which is still around you and which enters with
an immeasurable past into the present that is yours.

~ Rainer Maria Rilke ~

Well, i've managed to see another year against all odds as a cancer-survivor in a high-risk group due to my age and compromised immune system engulfed in a coronavirus-rich environment abetted by climate vagaries and the threat of nuclear annihilation. This is the best time to be alive because i am.

Otherwise not much to report, the year has been relatively uneventful but i am grateful to just wake up to another day of tranquil existence, enjoying the simple diurnal activities necessary for comfort and survival. Happy to have food, shelter, water, electricity and internet. Otherwise i am writing and managing content on social media — gardening not so much now as the weather has turned and i'm still a hothouse flower. About half way through my memoirs, up to 2000 when i left Jamaica.

Am no monarchist but appreciate history, tradition and pageantry. I have now lived under the reign of three monarchs, first as a subject of George VI and Elizabeth II, then as a citizen of Jamaica under consitutional monarchs Elizabeth II and Charles III. Monarchs
The 5 shilling note was my first weekly wage working in my father's shop. That same portrait was on my first exercise book. Then came the just ended New Elizabethan age with H.M.'s portrait on all our currency and stamps up until a few years ago when we switched to National Heroes. It remains to be seen what the new Carolean era will bring but i doubt Charles III's portrait will grace our currency or stamps, except perhaps for the odd commemorative.

Hunter

Avatar as hunter-gatherer, closest i'll get to cosplay. Fantasy fun for now but you never know when systems break down. Meanwhile i'm making compost and building soil.

There is only one courage and that is the courage to go on dying to the past,
not to collect it, not to accumulate it, not to cling to it.
We all cling to the past, and because we cling to the past
we become unavailable to the present.

~ Bhagwan Shree Rajneesh ~

Hollyhock Crepe myrtle Herbs Cymbidium Cabbage

Some of the year's triumphs despite lack of rain, snails and heavy winds.
Far left - Hollyhocks finally after 2 years of trying.
Centre left - Crepe myrtle known as June rose in Jamaica, had to have to remind me of home.
Centre right - Sage and savory in bloom in the herb garden.
Right - Cymbidium bought bare root and rewarding with spectacular blooms.
Above - Delicate colours of Portuguese cabbage.

Dahlia Dipladenia Oakleaf hydrangea
First time planting dahlias, did surprisingly well.
Dipladenia or Mandevila, never sure which.
Oakleaf hydrangea, first seen in DC, happily now part of my collection.
People, look: if we are going to find solutions to global problems — from global terrorism
to ecological suicide to a world that might find peace to a cure for global warming — then
we need human beings who are at a global, worldcentric level of consciousness, yes?
Yes, obviously — worldcentric problems demand worldcentric awareness... only people
at the worldcentric level of development can actually see the global or worldcentric
problem, and therefore they are the only ones that will be moved from within
to do something about it.
~ Ken Wilber ~

Unfortunately, not many have the consciousness necessary to make the shift. Besides we are caught in the money game which defines value and profit as the overriding goal. The system is not going to change any time soon though i suggested a possible solution over 10 years ago. Am very much aware of the gravity of our collective situation but as there is nothing i or anyone else can do to turn the tide, i sally forth. What more do i need beyond a cat, a garden, internet and home-made bread? Actually i have become addicted to binge-watching movies and series, having been introduced to streaming by Ruben. I've caught up with Downton Abbey, Upstairs Downstairs, Dr. Who, The Crown, The White Lotus, and with gay classics like Maurice, Querelle of Brest, and Sunday Bloody Sunday, as well as rewatching Mel Brooks comedies. This is detrimental when i should be writing, but what the hell? I don't know that there will be any posterity to write for.

It's only when we truly know and understand that we have a limited time
on earth — and that we have no way of knowing when our time is up, we will then
begin to live each day to the fullest, as if it was the only one we had.
~ Elisabeth Kubler-Ross ~
Mixed bed
Mixed bed of irises and snapdragon, some of my favourites in favourite colours.
Garden view
View of the garden showing senna tree in repurposed palm trunk.
Pergola
Pergola to reduce the summer sun, only purchase made this year.
Gazanias
Ruben helping paint.
Hydrangea
Completed kitchen paint job.
Had i bought the pergola last year, i would have saved €50. Lesson, don't procrastinate. Never put off, like i did to paint the accent colours for 2 years. Finally got the kitchen done with help from neighbour Ruben. Good thing i didn't expire before the paint.

If you can just appreciate each thing, one by one, then you will have
pure gratitude. Even though you observe just one flower, that one flower
includes everything. It is not just a flower. It is the absolute.

~ Shunryu Suziki ~

When you are totally alive and cannot be trapped or caged, only then do you have some
independence. Then you can be in the ordinary world all day long without it affecting you.

~ Mi-An ~

Such a pleasure to finally meet Matthew Chin with whom i'd been corresponding for years. He is assistant professor of gender studies and multidisciplinary scholar at University of Virginia with an interest in Chinese-Jamaican studies. Being intersectional, i am an obvious target for his research. He has published many papers focusing on GFM, JGN and my involvement. Matthew was instrumental in personally digitising the entire series of JGN issues, sourced from archives in Amsterdam, Toronto and from my personal archives, much of which has already been deposited to the Schomburg Library, and accessible online through D-LOC. He has encouraged me greatly in my writing and more importantly has agreed to be my executor, basically of intellectual property which is all the legacy i will have really. Already he is saddled with fulfilling Amazon orders for Wisdom for the Soul which function i cannot do from outside the US. Many thanks to him, and to Joshua Romanoff and Suzette Gardener, previous angels who helped me out.

Very pleased to have reconnected with Melanie Ghisays with whom i worked at MARS a lifetime ago. Her brother Dominic lives in the north of Portugal and she was here to settle on property she bought near to him. She was even able to present me with a bottle of extra virgin olive oilfrom her quinta. Impressive! It was great to spend time with them both and catch up on old times.

Another former DC native now in Germany, John Salatti and wife Andrea, made a detour of their trip to Fatima to see me. John and i were part of Friends of Macmillan, an advocacy group trying to stop the destruction of historic Macmillan Park in DC. The developers won and the bulldozers came in.

Matthew
Matthew and me.
We are now faced with the fact that tomorrow is today. We are confronted with the fierce urgency of now.
~ Martin Luther King Jr. ~
Justice and Desiree
Justice, me and Desiree.
Photo courtesy Desiree
Colin and family
Colin, his daughter and granddaughter.
Photo courtesy Colin
Radical Faeries
Radical Faeries at Sintra beach — not a good shot i know as it was cold and windy and i couldn't focus.
Also in the process of securing property were Justice and Desiree from Los Angeles who stayed here at the quinta last year. We bonded over our interest in alernative social structures and the work of Grace Lee Boggs. They dropped in again when they came to sign last month. If all goes well, we will be neighbours in the next village over. I was meeting Colin Van Niel for the first time, originally from Guyana now DC resident, referred by mutual friend Jennifer Nunes . We shared post-colonial experiences and DC memories over lunch. Met up back with Jai (left) who has returned from Spain to teach at university in Sintra. We used to share when i had the apartment in Peña da França. He introduced me to a Radical Faeries group trying to establish a centre in Portugal.

Huge shout out to Madine who has stayed here a couple times and brings me wine and cheese — naturally, he's French. He loves the bread i make so he's an alright guy in my books. He saved my life by lending me a laptop when mine crashed. I still have it as a spare, by my bed in case inspiration strikes me in the night.

Had not stayed in one place long enough to get to know the neighbours. Now having been in this location for 2+ years, happy to have Ruben Teixeira and his kids in the flat below. Rodrigo and Nita add vibrancy and playful activity to an otherwise tranquil existence. Their screams and patter of little feet are life-affirming and reassuring. They love to jump on my trampoline. They're like stand-ins for my great-grandnephews and -nieces who are far away, some i haven't met. Ruben and i exchange recipes in his slowly becoming vegetarian. I've introduced him to tea and kimchee, Szechuan pepper, pumpkin soup and stout punch. I get to practice Portuguese with him more now as the other residents have been mostly expats.

Kids are the future and i hope they will inherit a world worth having in which they can survive and thrive. What we do now will have an impact on them for years to come. Do the right thing, if not for yourself, then for them.

Out of the sighs of one generation
are kneaded the hopes of the next.

~ Joaquim Machado de Assis ~
Hunter
Ruben and kids at the park.
Photo courtesy Ruben

Good to know i have a more than virtual life and that friends still value me enough to seek me out. Nothing beats real connections. Together, we've completed another circuit of the sun. As you embark on another, make the most of the time, whatever that may mean for you. There is no other time, no other place.

Life is short and we never have enough time for gladdening the hearts of those
who travel the way with us. O, be swift to love! Make haste to be kind.

~ Henri-Frédéric Amiel ~
It's a very short trip. While alive, live.
~ Malcolm S. Forbes ~

Awareness is all. Know that you are. Bliss. Joy. Here. Now.

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Vila Franca de Xira, Portugal, Year-end 2022


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